Hello Blog-friend(s),
Apparently it's organise your home office day today! Well sounds like fun - except I never use my "office" at home, it's my boyfriend's territory despite me being the one who actually needs an office! Never mind I've got one at work and it's practically my home anyway - maybe today I'll organise my office home instead! 
I've not really got a lot to say on the "whore"-front, I've got about 8 blokes waiting for a reply but I've gone and got cold feet - which is a bit stupid really as I actually felt dead elated when I finished my "shift" on Thursday night - it was nice being able to afford to pay for stuff for once!
It's just I'm so scared my man won't understand, we did discuss it and he said he didn't have a problem with jealousy but he didn't want me to do it incase I got attacked. I know if he found out his problem would be that I lied to him, but I'm a big believer in what someone doesn't know, doesn't hurt them - to tell him in order that I'm not lying would I assume be more cruel because it'd be rubbing his face in it that other people are ogling his girlfriend while he works 24 hours overtime a week in order to pay for our future.
I also know if I told him he would feel bad for me being "undignified" to earn money for us both and would insist on taking even more overtime, which is hardly fair on him - oh dear, I guess I'd better get onto those 8 guys and just make damned sure I don't get caught!
It doesn't help that I feel unnattractive at the moment, I'm sure I don't look any different, but I feel unsexy and I've got a fair few plukes (probably coz I'm stressing out) at this moment in time I wouldn't pay me £45 - £95 per hour to strip and I just couldn't bear to turn up and a guy to tell me I'm a dog and to bugger off!
Does anyone know how to make yourself feel sexy? Coz I know if I feel sexy I will be sexy but it's just so hard getting motivated and feeling good this week! 
Ah well back to the day-job ... I'm compiling a CD today - not nearly as fun as it sounds!