by
aminthemorning1
@ 06/03/08 - 15:47:49
Well not quite a hooker per se ... but almost. I'm gonna get paid for blokes to leer at me and if the money's right I'm not going to turn down the occasional hand-job!
Now what makes a well educated, fairly prudish, very in love, almost 30 year old turn to turning tricks for cold hard cash? I hear you ask! I'll tell you ... the Government!!!
I have lived 10 years in poverty, I unfortunately had fairly well off parents who it was deemed by the government would pay my university fees - but I was bought up not to be a parasite. I paid my own way from the age of 14 when I got my first job, I wasn't about to start begging off my parents when I left home ... so I got into debt instead.
Now I have finally paid off almost all of my debt and am ready to start living life and I see petrol prices rocketing, house-prices at ridiculous levels and I've bad credit so getting a mortgage is going to be pretty tough anyway.
My mother always said work hard at school and you'll play the rest of your life - yes that seemed to be true then but it's not now. I work and I work and I work and I work and I live in a shitty little rented place and the tax man takes a quarter and the student loans guys take a load and the national insurance takes tons and yet I've never had anything back for it - I don't have kids, when I was ill one time I couldn't work out how to claim benefits because I was required to attend my job centre but was obviously too ill so I stayed in bed and got deeper into debt for a couple of months before going out and getting a new job that would pay sick pay if it happened again.
I really don't get it, how do other people manage? I see people with crap jobs or no jobs and loads of kids smoking and going out and buying all that unhealthy expensive food and I just can not understand how they survive!
Anyway, I can just about survive now I'm almost debt free but at this rate I'll never have my own home or even be able to rent somewhere nice, I'll not have anything in my retirement and I'm going to spend my entire life working like an ant to pay for all those people with kids to get family credits or whatever is paying for their expensive cigarettes!
So that's why I'm gonna start exposing my body for cash - but I'm scared, very, very scared! I'm scared I'll get attacked, I'm scared my boyfriend will find out and not understand, I'm scared my family will find out and disown me and I'm scared I'd lose my job if it ever got out what I do on the side AND I'm not 100% sure of the law - I don't think it's illegal to show off your bits for cash in privacy without a licence - but then I don't fancy telling the tax man and I'm not absolutely sure I'm not soliciting!
Oh well first punter's at 5pm tonight - I'll let you know how it goes (hopefully!)